My New Year's Resolutions that this year, I keep

Hello guys, I know it's been a while, again. 
Things are going great at my current job, retail would have definitely not been my first choice in where to go after my previous, still isn't my choice first choice, but it's paying really well and the coworkers are great. There aren't as many bad customers as in my other retail jobs that I've held either XP which is a good plus. 

I'm still working towards finishing up my art portfolio, I took a little break through the holidays between Thanksgiving and New Years to focus on family and such, and now I'm finishing up. I only need a few more pieces!! I know I haven't shared much of them on here but perhaps ifI get in I'll just make a little collage or something afterwards. I'm getting high hopes just to keep myself motivated but I'm still extremely nervous, but I'm getting better at believing that I will do fine.

I've decided that regardless whether I get into any of the colleges or not, I'm moving out of state. I've had just about all I can bear of Kentucky. I need out. I will probably end up going south to Florida either way, just because I have so many friends in that area. Grant pretty much stated he's ok with just about anywhere as long as the unemployment rates, cost of living, average income, crime rates, etc. aren't outrageous XD. He's agreed on going south... he's growing to hate the cold. 
We also have even more reason to move considering we have more on our heads that goes against where we are. We got a little puppy before the holidays named Mika, and our landlord pretty much tossed the pet policies (that never really were solid to begin with) back and forth, changed them on us, and threw them at us and we were not able to keep her anymore. We weren't even given 30 days like we're supposed to. She told us one day, didn't give us a deadline, then a week and a half later put a note on our door saying "you have 24 hours to get rid of the dog or you may face eviction". Grant's family is fostering her for us for now, until we get a new place to live that we can keep her in. May sound silly to have this give you more cause to move, but my pets are the same to me as children would be, and they mean the world to us. We hate that our little family got broken up so we're going to put it back together, get our baby Mika back with us and in a new place where she will be able to stay  
For those wondering - we do still have our cat, Wolfie. She did not/was not able to enforce any rules regarding her considering she has been aware of Wolfie from day one, and the pet policies in place when we got Wolfie were different than the new ones and we are able to keep her. The only thing we really need to do soon is get her spayed and get her shots so that that doesn't go against us. We're going to do that anyways considering we were thinking of moving south where it's warmer and we cannot take her being in heat so much anyways. That's on our "before we move" to-do list anyways. Also for anyone saying that we should fight back regarding Mika, I know alot of the things she did/said cannot actually be done, and that we CAN fight back, but I really don't want to, Mika has a place to be right now and we don't need the extra stress that would come with fighting back, Mika definitely don't either. We also kind of need a place to live and don't want to move in town when we're already planning an out of state move, so we're not going to bother with it. 

I will try so very hard to cosplay again. I'm starting to get a little more motivated into creating new cosplays and finishing those I never finished. I know for sure if I move to Florida I will be able to go to more cons again, though I'm already aware I won't be able to go to any at all this year probably just because of school if I get in, money, getting used to the changes, and settling in. I want to try! However, it's not exactly a realistic goal at the moment so I'm not going to set it as a resolution. I WILL say I will do at least two or three new cosplays this year. I don't care if they're simple or detailed. I don't care if they're not something easily recognized or the most popular crap out there, I'm going to do it. 
(I'm also going to get this stupid eczema under control again so I can feel comfortable in some of the ones I did want to do... DARN YOU WINTER)

I'm going to start being myself again... last year I didn't do but ONE new cosplay, and go figure, I didn't even feel like photographing it (it was an original version of Gumi, based off of ringmaster designs. I'm sure wearing it to a fair on Halloween probably destroyed my Gumi wig though *sobs*). I have done quite a bit of photography, I've got more business than I've had in a while, but I'm going in and out of having any form of motivation. I'm already working on that, though. 
I just feel like I've lost alot of those sparks that have made me happy, by that happening I've grown very tired and drained of energy and my anxiety is much more easily triggered, the panic attacks are more frequent, random, and often more violent. 
I haven't felt like watching anime, reading manga or comics, I haven't felt like cosplaying, I haven't felt like listening to music as much, I haven't felt like playing video games as much (although I'm becoming addicted to Animal Crossing:New Leaf as I can bring my 3DS to work and play on breaks), and I'm feeling like I'm becoming worthless and pathetic compared to my past self. After I submit my portfolio, I'm taking a huge break from what I consider "work" outside of my job. I'm going to just relax until I find out if I get in or not, and just save up money in the meantime. (I'm also thinking of taking up meditation again... just to ease my brain)

I'm going to get my website back online (took it down about a month ago for renovations, never finished the coding) and it's going to be better than ever. I'm going to be more active on here. I'm going to do better cosplays. I'm going to watch new animes. I'm going to gain more energy, first by making myself feel better mentally/emotionally, then by trying to be more active. Dance, exercise, skateboarding, basketball, all the things I used to do that were active. How I still have large biceps and a 6 pack I don't know, I put on a little more weight but that was something I needed to do anyways XD I'm going to try to make myself happy with myself, metally and physically. 

Well, let's see where I stand this time next year... let's see if I follow through with these. I want to. I really do. More than anything. I want this to be a year of good changes... regardless what life throws at me.